Back to chilling after my friend just took off. Loaded him up with leftovers so I can finally dine on something other than pasta tomorrow. Only so much of any one dish a person can stand and today marks the 4th day. Bleh.
My mother disappeared after that last response and perhaps will stay gone. Never know. I’ve tried not to think of her over the last couple of days.
Been screwing off a fair amount lately, but what’s new? Got the alarm clock though so hopefully that will settle the waking issue, my cell phone not being reliable enough. Very frustrated at myself for over-sleeping today. 
But all I can do is take measures to not let it happen again. Shame shame.
I’m perpetually tired this week and have a painful lump near the base of my neck, probably a swollen lymph node. But at least the weather is warmer and it’s beautiful out. That’s nice. Loving the new perfume and makeup too! Last night I ordered a replacement for my Studio Fix base off MAC’s website (free shipping and they weren’t discounted on Ebay).
This afternoon I picked up the box-set audiobook for George Orwell’s 1984 and Animal Farm (including commentary from some journalist guy, will have to check who). The bookstore also carried the audiobook of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s most famous speeches and sermons, which I plan to buy next. Have only heard his 1967 speech at the Riverside Church in its entirety.
And now, picking up this blog again at half past midnight, I’ve just finished watching Animal Farm the movie (1999) (viewable online for free, click the link). Ugh. Not worth it. Having not read or listened to the book yet, it’s still completely obvious that this movie bastardized George Orwell’s writing. The happy ending confirms this. What a sadly ironic way to butcher a man’s work. So not worth viewing a second time, that’s for sure. But it has further piqued my interest in hearing what was actually written, which hopefully can be started on within the next couple of weeks, either before or after 1984 (a book I’ve already read online but wouldn’t mind listening to a second time).
As always, my mind is swirling with a 150 topics, few of which I care to tackle this evening. Haven’t felt like writing much of anything of substance in a while, preferring to quietly think and discuss what springs to mind among friends. Been feeling super brain-numb lately, like my mind’s fizzled out and overwhelmed by all there is to learn and do. It’s good to have downtime to tend to our health and concern ourselves with trivial, less weighty topics of interest to balance out the heavy stuff and keep on even keel. Seems the trick is in not being reduced to zombies 24/7. Just know I’m tired.
Life is too incredible to comprehend, and my admiration goes out to its designer, whatever that may be. There’s never a shortage in things to take in and examine. Just sucks that much of what’s analyzed points back to Americans being stubborn elitists no matter how liberal or enlightened we regard ourselves to be, easily fooled into accepting our reality is the only option there is and that if we follow the guidance of “experienced” leaders, all will be fine in our little worlds. But it won’t. How can it? None of this is sustainable indefinitely. Whether we can stay afloat economically another couple of decades under our current way of doing things is anyone’s guess, though I’d venture to say it won’t. It can’t. How can it? Suppose only time will tell what creative genius is introduced to save the day, if indeed one succeeds.
It’s all rather depressing to think about but I have to remember that with anything there are both good and bad consequences, many of which tend to be unforeseen and unexpected. Who knows what the future holds? We’re not necessarily living in times more “evil” than any other over the last 3,000 years; just seems that way because we’re in it, experiencing it upclose and personally. As always, a relative few continue to spread the age-old message that we’re misguided and headed in the wrong direction, and as is generally the case, their (our) ominous concerns often go ignored by the larger populace. What can be done with that?
It’s all rather disheartening, but I’m trying to find peace in accepting my limitations while doing my part in educating myself. There’s only so much one person is capable of on their own, our strength lying in numbers. All a person like me can do is keep jabbering and hope smarter and better able people will continue to do the same with the objective of turning the hearts and minds of a few more. Maybe it will happen. I do believe people care – we just can’t seem to figure out what’s worthy of our efforts and concern. It’s not simply the individual’s fault – we have an entire system built around making matters of importance confusing and tedious for the common citizen to make sense of.
With that I’m heading off for fluffy banter to end the night on a less irritating note. Out.
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wakemenow said
Just watched videos 1-4 & 7 of the movie 1984 (didn’t know one existed – videos 5 and 6 violated youtube’s user agreement and were removed):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xns67AVkOeI
I’ll watch the rest tomorrow. So far it follows George Orwell’s book closely, though admittedly it helps to have read it before viewing this movie. Probably wouldn’t make much sense otherwise.
No matter what break I attempt away from these sort of morbid fictions and topics, they draw me back in like a moth to a flame hour after hour.
Checking email and headed to bed very soon.