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Thursday Night

Chatted with one of my neighbors tonight.  First time too.  Seen him around and he seems cool, but we’d never said much but in passing.  Just happened to strike up a conversation outside around 10pm and wound up talking ’til 3am.  Wow.  Long time.  Wasn’t just me jabbering the whole time either, though sure, I probably did dominate the conversation a bit.  Nice guy.  Younger, though very intelligent.  In a nutshell the conversation was on a handful of books, imagination, and life.  Lots of topics were broached.  Very nice guy.  Good to get to know the neighbors.  :)   We exchanged books, with him lending me Ray Bradbury’s Fahrenheit 451.

Unfortunately I neglected to call back a friend this evening.  My apologies.  I totally didn’t mean to be like that, it was just odd chatting with a neighbor about that kind of stuff.  How often does that happen?  Probably more to me than most, but still.  Doesn’t happen frequently, for sure.  It’s great chatting with others who know about some of these things and care enough to not run completely away from reality like deaf sheep.  Read the rest of this entry »

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“Coming off psych drugs may increase hostility”

“The FDA issued a warning that when taking SSRI antidepressants, any abrupt change in dose (up or down) can result in suicide, psychosis or hostility — their word to describe homicide. There is mounting scientific evidence that during withdrawal from these drugs, there could be a temporary worsening of hostility, violence, suicidiality and other negative symptoms. This danger usually begins from 3 weeks to 4 months after discontinuing the drug and lasts from 1 month to 1 year. Even though the medication will no longer show up in a blood test or autopsy report, the brain neurotransmitters are still trying to “realign” themselves and symptoms can continue.”

From: The Links Between Psychiatry, Drugs and Suicide

Might not be news to others, but I find it interesting due to my own experiences on and coming off of Lexapro back in 2007 (and also my brief, 6-week trial of Zoloft prescribed at age 13 by a doctor who spent 20 minutes with me, on only one occasion, and twice prescribed Wellbutrin/Zyban to aid in quitting smoking).  Read the rest of this entry »

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A peaceful afternoon/The Last White Hope

Worked briefly this morning then swam and laid out by the pool with a galpal today.  Previously referred to as “Primadonna,” though I should seriously rethink thinking of her like that.  She means well and has her heart in the right place.  Doesn’t always act in ways I might expect, but hey, who does?  I have a tendency to vent when upset, speaking as though I’m permanently dismissing the person from my life, but it rarely goes that way.  Frustrations subside, communication cures what was ailing us, and we move on.  I bitch the most in unfamiliar situations, like when befriending women because it is such a touchy subject.  But whatever, just know I rarely mean it in full.  Hence the purpose of this blog/journal – to vent out and thinking about whatever needs to be hashed and rehashed so as to gain a better understanding of others and myself and how and why we interact as we do. Read the rest of this entry »

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Sunday Night Issues

Feeling dejected tonight, and drunk.  Mostly drunk.  Dejected about a woman though, a butch lesbian I met tonight at the bar.  It’s simply the manner in which she took off, especially after nice conversation, without truly saying “goodbye” or stating they were leaving for the night.  We seemed to get along before that and agreed on the political topics we discussed, but…she took off without any talk about further contact.  My rational side says she may have recently come out of a breakup or maybe isn’t looking to connect right now; my dramatic, less rational side says I’m a doofus around women and that I turned her off.  Who knows the truth?  Certainly not me.

Not feeling too good either way.  Had too much to drink, that’s a given.  So hard to type now.  Sucks feeling dejected after a positive day, but oh well.  Learning to roll with life’s punches and gutterballs.  It happens.  Can’t always be lucky.  Not even half the time sometimes.  Maybe I didn’t ask enough about her?  Maybe my questions and topics are off-kilter for a woman’s sensibilities?  Who knows?  Still trying to figure it all out.

Gotta head elsewhere now.  Can’t type worth a darn.  Too much effort.  :P

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Saturday Thoughts

This week has been fairly mild considering all that’s gone on.  Last weekend was rough, then I over-ate all week and gained back the 5 lbs. I previously lost, which was embarrassing discussing with my gym trainer.  Ugh.  So it’s back to square one, still hovering around 162 lbs. despite working out regularly for the past 3 weeks.  The issue truly does appear to be my food quantities.  Bummer.  But last week I did very well and was satisfied and this upcoming week, beginning last night so far as I’m concerned, will be better still.  Last week was a glip, a reaction to life’s stress, now it’s time to get back on that horse and keep learning to ride. Read the rest of this entry »

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Death in police custody in France

Damn.  France is having problems a lot like our own.

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An afternoon of pampering

Hello everybody.  :)   I am currently in the process of redying my hair, as has been the routine for many, many years (not even sure exactly what my natural haircolor is supposed to be, hehe).  Read the rest of this entry »

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“Crazy Philosophy”

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Psychiatry: An Industry Of Death

Watched this very cool show tonight:

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Imagining a different future

Interview with Peter Joseph, producer of the movie Zeitgeist:

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Not sure what to think of this interview. The notion that a person’s integrity is only as good as the integrity of his or her environment makes a lot of sense.  This is what I believe Bertolt Brecht meant when he was quoted as saying: “No one can be good for long if goodness is not in demand.”  The message of Zeitgeist the movie also relates with Albert Schweitzer’s statement: “The first step in the evolution of ethics is a sense of solidarity with other human beings.”  This appears to be the piece of the puzzle we’re missing: reciprocal trust and protection among humankind.  We need it in order to evolve any further, and yet the powers-that-be prefer corruption.  It can be said that we the people are also corrupted, here in the U.S. and elsewhere, developing skewed, selfish expectations for our own lives, others be damned.  But I honestly believe most people would want better if they could imagine a life very different than we’ve ever known.

What Peter Joseph envisions isn’t far off from my own dreams and thoughts.

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Sexuality Ponderings

Okay, not to be weird following the psychiatry posts, but a thought dawned on me the other day: Am I a gay man trapped in a woman’s body?  LOL  Makes ya wonder.  Read the rest of this entry »

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Criticism of the American “Psychopharmacological” Association

Found this letter reprinted on this site, originally written in 1998.  Dr. Loren Mosher passed away at age 70 in 2004.  The letter follows, in full (except for removing street addresses and phone numbers):

Psychiatrist dissolves 35 year association with American Psychiatric Association

December 4, 1998

Rodrigo Munoz, M.D., President
American Psychiatric Association

Washington, D.C. 20005

Dear Rod:

After nearly three decades as a member it is with a mixture of pleasure and disappointment that I submit this letter of resignation from the American Psychiatric Association. The major reason for this action is my belief that I am actually resigning from the American Psychopharmacological Association. Luckily, the organization’s true identity requires no change in the acronym.

APA reflects, and reinforces, in word and deed, our drug dependent society. Yet, it helps wage war on “drugs”. “Dual Diagnosis” clients are a major problem for the field but not because of the “good” drugs we prescribe. “Bad” ones are those that are obtained mostly without a prescription. A Marxist would observe that being a good capitalist organization, APA likes only those drugs from which it can derive a profit–directly or indirectly. This is not a group for me. At this point in history, in my view, psychiatry has been almost completely bought out by the drug companies. The APA could not continue without the pharmaceutical company support of meetings, symposia, workshops, journal advertising, grand rounds luncheons, unrestricted educational grants etc. etc. Psychiatrists have become the minions of drug company promotions. APA, of course, maintains that its independence and autonomy are not compromised in this enmeshed situation. Anyone with the least bit of common sense attending the annual meeting would observe how the drug company exhibits and industry sponsored symposia draw crowds with their various enticements while the serious scientific sessions are barely attended. Psychiatric training reflects their influence as well; i.e., the most important part of a resident curriculum is the art and quasi-science of dealing drugs, i.e., prescription writing.

These psychopharmacological limitations on our abilities to be complete physicians also limit our intellectual horizons. No longer do we seek to understand whole persons in their social contexts, rather we are there to realign our patients’ neurotransmitters. The problem is that it is very difficult to have a relationship with a neurotransmitter, whatever its configuration. So, our guild organization provides a rationale, by its neurobiological tunnel vision, for keeping our distance from the molecule conglomerates we have come to define as patients. We condone and promote the widespread overuse and misuse of toxic chemicals that we know have serious long term effects: tardive dyskinesia, tardive dementia and serious withdrawal syndromes. So, do I want to be a drug company patsy who treats molecules with their formulary? No, thank you very much. It saddens me that after 35 years as a psychiatrist I look forward to being dissociated from such an organization. In no way does it represent my interests. It is not within my capacities to buy into the current biomedical-reductionistic model heralded by the psychiatric leadership as once again marrying us to somatic medicine. This is a matter of fashion, politics and, like the pharmaceutical house connection, money.

In addition, APA has entered into an unholy alliance with NAMI (I don’t remember the members being asked if they supported such an organization) such that the two organizations have adopted similar public belief systems about the nature of madness. While professing itself the champion of their clients the APA is supporting non-clients, the parents, in their wishes to be in control, via legally enforced dependency, of their mad/bad offspring. NAMI, with tacit APA approval, has set out a pro-neuroleptic drug and easy commitment-institutionalization agenda that violates the civil rights of their offspring. For the most part we stand by and allow this fascistic agenda to move forward. Their psychiatric god, Dr. E. Fuller Torrey, is allowed to diagnose and recommend treatment to those in the NAMI organization with whom he disagrees. Clearly, a violation of medical ethics. Does APA protest? Of course not, because he is speaking what APA agrees with but can’t explicitly espouse. He is allowed to be a foil; after all he is no longer a member of APA. (Slick work APA!) The shortsightedness of this marriage of convenience between APA, NAMI and the drug companies (who gleefully support both groups because of their shared pro-drug stance) is an abomination. I want no part of a psychiatry of oppression and social control.

Biologically based brain diseases are convenient for families and practitioners alike. It is no fault insurance against personal responsibility. We are just helplessly caught up in a swirl of brain pathology for which no one, except DNA, is responsible. Now, to begin with, anything that has an anatomically defined specific brain pathology becomes the province of neurology (syphilis is an excellent example). So, to be consistent with this brain disease view all the major psychiatric disorders would become the territory of our neurologic colleagues. Without having surveyed them I believe they would eschew responsibility for these problematic individuals. However, consistency would demand our giving over biologic brain diseases to them. The fact that there is no evidence confirming the brain disease attribution is, at this point, irrelevant. What we are dealing with here is fashion, politics and money. This level of intellectual/scientific dishonesty is just too egregious for me to continue to support by my membership.

I view with no surprise that psychiatric training is being systemically disavowed by American medical school graduates. This must give us cause for concern about the state of today’s psychiatry. It must mean at least in part that they view psychiatry as being very limited and unchallenging. To me it seems clear that we are headed toward a situation in which, except for academics, most psychiatric practitioners will have no real relationships–so vital to the healing process–with the disturbed and disturbing persons they treat. Their sole role will be that of prescription writers: ciphers in the guise of being “helpers”.

Finally, why must the APA pretend to know more than it does? DSM-IV is the fabrication upon which psychiatry seeks acceptance by medicine in general. Insiders know it is more a political than scientific document. To its credit it says so–although its brief apologia is rarely noted. DSM-IV has become a bible and a money making best seller–its major failings notwithstanding. It confines and defines practice, some take it seriously, others more realistically. It is the way to get paid. Diagnostic reliability is easy to attain for research projects. The issue is what do the categories tell us? Do they in fact accurately represent the person with a problem? They don’t, and can’t, because there are no external validating criteria for psychiatric diagnoses. There is neither a blood test nor specific anatomic lesions for any major psychiatric disorder. So, where are we? APA as an organization has implicitly (sometimes explicitly as well) bought into a theoretical hoax. Is psychiatry a hoax–as practiced today? Unfortunately, the answer is mostly yes.

What do I recommend to the organization upon leaving after experiencing three decades of its history?

  1. To begin with, let us be ourselves. Stop taking on unholy alliances without the members permission.
  2. Get real about science, politics and money. Label each for what it is-that is, be honest.
  3. Get out of bed with NAMI and the drug companies. APA should align itself, if one believes its rhetoric, with the true consumer groups, i. e., the ex-patients, psychiatric survivors etc.
  4. Talk to the membership. I can’t be alone in my views.

We seem to have forgotten a basic principle: the need to be patient/client/consumer satisfaction oriented. I always remember Manfred Bleuler’s wisdom: “Loren, you must never forget that you are your patient’s employee. In the end they will determine whether or not psychiatry survives in the service marketplace.”

Sincerely,
Loren R. Mosher M.D.

San Diego, CA 92122

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“Schizophrenia”

Sidetracked onto reading up about “Schizophrenia” (a diagnosis I knew little about) and an article comparing it against Nietzsche’s “Uebermensch” and “The Survivor Personality.”  Very interesting stuff: http://www.successfulschizophrenia.org/articles/nietz.html

Huh.  Wow.  Really interesting actually.

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Wait, why is this on here?

Sorry, got distracted.  I just noticed that Daniel Hausen’s case is being reported on CBS’s Crimesider: http://www.cbsnews.com/sections/crimesider/main504083.shtml?keyword=Daniel+Hauser

Eh?  Crimesider?  Not sure what that is but the site says it’s “the true crime destination from the producers of 48 Hours Mystery.”  Huh.  Well, where’s the crime here?  Daniel and/or his parents have a right to refuse chemo.  I mean, if the child wished for medical treatment, I’d think that ought to supersede the parents’ wishes against it, but here you have a kid and his family all saying that they don’t want this and are being forced against their will anyway.  Looks like the state of Minnesota is the one fucking up.  People have a right to decide to do with their bodies as they see fit.  Where we draw the line for young people and invalids is difficult to say, but it’d seem by 13 you’re old enough to reject a treatment on your own accord.

Hmm…see it’s shit like this that paralyzes me.  What can a person aspire to that doesn’t involve the state and feds breathing down your neck, crippling taxes, and everything else that goes along with living in a corporate-fascist nation?  This is crazy, man.  Who’d want to live to old age in a system like the one we’re getting??  Where a person can’t even refuse medical treatment!  It’s not as if he’s contagious.  The boy and his parents have the right to choose, for better or worse, what’s best for their own lives.

This makes me so sick, having followed this story.  Just strange to see it posted on Crimesider with the top title: “Forced Chemo Improving Tumor, Not Attitude.”  WTF?  It’s too soon to say much about his progress, but why quip on the boy’s attitude?  Notice how they have no problem referring to it as “forced Chemo” – no wordplay there.

Wake up, fellow Americans.  It will be you next.

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Grumbling

Ugh.  Not feeling well today.  Not sure what my malfunction is.  My schedule for the evening cleared, in part due to my car needing to stay in the shop overnight.  Fun fun.  Apparently I’ve been driving dangerously without a clue. Read the rest of this entry »

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